Down

A bit down but life goes on.. today went printing with someone.. had a great dinner saw two fons i like haha but all function suz.. haiz.. but still i like the fon.. =)
haiz gonna slp le.. my sleeping at 12 gone again.. try again tml...

This Is The Day

Today everyone was crying... as usual my bro & I did not... yesterday I already cried hard enough.. and i dun cry in front of others.. i only weep alone in a dark corner of my room... haiz.. i must act strong in front of everyone.. act happy.. but am i really that strong and happy Im acting to be??? Everyone is putting up a fake smile and strong front.. i dun deny i am too...

Today I damn tired... tired... & tired.... tired of everything.... including my life...?? Maybe... perhaps...

-Last Min I Feel Abit Upset Cuz Of Someone Oh No...!-
<--Off To Dreamland & Let My Life Come To A Pause-->

Read This

It's not time to make a change
Just relax--take it easy
You're still young--that's your fault
There's so much you have to know
Find a man, settle down
If you want, you can marry
Look at me--I am old
But I'm happy

I was once like you are now
And I know that it's not easy
To become when you've found
Something going on
But take your time--think a lot
Think of everthing you've got
For you will still be here tomorrow
But your dreams may not...

How can I try to explain?
When I do--it turns away again
And it's always been the same
Same old story
From the moment I could talk
I was ordered to listen
Now there's a way, and I know
That I have to go awayI know, I have to go..

It's not time to make a change
Just sit downand take it slowly
You're still young--that's your fault
There's so much you have to go through
Find a man, settle down
If you want, you can marry
Look at me--I am old
But I'm happy

All the times, that I've cried
Keeping all the things I knew inside
And it's hard
But it's harder to ignore it

If they were right--I'd agree
But it's them--they know
Not me
That I have to go away

-Little Daughter Miss You-

This Is Nice...

If only you could see the tears in the world you left behind
If only you could heal my heart just one more time
Even when I close my eyes
There's an image of your face
And once again I come I'll relise
You're a loss I can't replace

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
SoledadIn my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can't believe just what an empty place
It has come to be
I would give my life away
If it could only be the same
Cause I can't still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

Time will never change the things you told me
After all we're meant to be love will bring us back to you and me
If only you could see

Soledad
It's a keeping for the lonely
Since the day that you were gone
Why did you leave me
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory live on
Why did you leave me
Soledad

A Little Story. . .

One morning it was raining heavily.. a little girl was sleeping in her room so soundly.. suddenly a loud thunder striked.. the poor stubborn naughty little girl got so scared that she ran towards her hero and hugged him so tight.. that hero laughed at her and cuddled her tightly in his care and told her "Don't be scared... thunder strikes when little children are naughty the god is trying to scare them.." the hero carried the little girl back to her room and put her to sleep.. and the little girl slept so well.. cause she knew that the hero was beside her watching her to sleep..
Its chirstmas tomorrow.. the hero told the little girl to put her small shoes outside so that the Santa Cluas would know that theres little children in this house.. the little girl do as what she was told and the little girl placed a Red Santas Claus shoe beside her bed.. and the next morning the shoe was filled with candies and chocolate.. the little girl really believed that Santa Claus really exist.. the little girl ran to her hero and told him "You see Santa came yesterday and gave me candy" her hero replied " Ya.. that is Santa.. he only gave good children naughty chidren he won't give" the little girl was so happy.. from then onwards every year the little girl would put her shoes outside before that she would ask her hero should i put her shoes outside her hero would say yes.. one day the little gril did not put the Red Santa Shoe beside her but as usual the next morning she still find theres lot of candies and chocolate beside her.. As time goes by the little girl had already grown up she knew Santa does not exist.. but she still placed her shoe outside and the Red shoe beside her.. she knew that it was her hero who bought all the candies and chocolate one xmas the little girl woke up early that morning she forged sleeping and she saw her hero place the candies beside her.. she knew it but she carried on and believe theres a Santa. The Santa was the hero.. Now the little girl has already grown up everytime she heard thunder she got no one to cuddle her and no more candies and chocolate during Xmas cuase the hero was gone.. now the little girl must take care of herself no more protected zone.. no more hero.. the hero now has became a butterfly.. flying everywhere he like freely and sometimes he will fly into the little girl's room to see how is she espeacially when the little girl was down and sad the butterfly would always appeared.. Is that you my hero??
One day when I grow old will I forget how you look like? Forget your face? Forget everything you did??
Memories are so fade.. one day it will all fade away.. Im scared.. this day really comes...
One year passed, soon it will be two years, three years, four years, five and ten years.. then it will be the day when I get marry.. when you are not there for me.. to warn the guy who loves me to protect me and don't bully me.. and telling him that you entrust me to him.. Without you saying this.. Something just goes missing..
-Little Girl Story-

Raining Emo Day

So long i nv update my blog.. anyway theres nth much for me to say.. everyday is the same stress at sch.. slack at home.. even sat i had to study for my database.. waste someone time.. so sorry.. last week sat went meet my darling nurse.. wow we went TCC had coffee & cake so nice to see her.. she is best.. although nv see for long and she eveytime say i bitch -.- sometimes i feel hurt she nv support me.. but i still glad she's der.. now tt she had change i wanted to tell her but dunno how.. humans change.. as a friend i cant do anything much.. its her life though.. then i went to watch Over the hedge w my friends wahaha so funny gonna watch again if someone treats.. ha.. no point la.. waste $$ at night went car racing w my friends.. ok la quite fun saw a bitch.. haiz say ppl bitch i oso bitch where has the right to say ppl when i myself is also one.. but i see my friend so sad.. haiz.. well.. wat can i do.. sun went out w my sec friends.. all guai guai so long nv see them le.. seeing them make me feel so nice.. although seldom meet but still they always share my tears n sorrow.. thanks Saint Sistas.. ha.. went to had a fake tatoo so exciting.. this is wat friends does.. there are somethings tt only friends can give u a feeling tt bf cant.. then one week past again.. hectic work in sch again.. then this weekend comes again went database again.. so fun.. a day with no stress at all.. if everyday is a sat it would be cool.. then today.. raining.. emo sia.. slept until 4 plus wake up call my bf.. wow biangz quarrel.. shouts.. until my throat tear.. mayb im too selfish.. he capped my fon.. haiz.. perhaps i really not a good gf.. nv think of other ppl feelings.. but im really stress.. i need some space.. i need to breathe.. *is this an excuse for myself*?? But. . . why am i not happy at all.. Papa where are you.. I miss you.. *sad. Cry* is only you were here at least i can feel that my hero is protecting me.. *Ah Ta Is Sorrry* Now i had to take care of myself & mama.. I saw the motorbike ma bought is so cute.. You always ride me around when i was young.. you told me I cant get a bf with bike cuz is dangerous must with car.. You asked me to get a rich husband i told you is about love not money.. but now i realise.. *I Miss You* Tml is One Yr... You Had Already Leave Me For One Yr.. why i still feels it is as though is yesterday.. I bought your favourite peanuts for you.. hope yoy will like it.. but its no point doing so much when someone is gone.. why din i tresure you more.. I may seems to be happy but everytime i think of you theres a stone in my hear that never be lifted.. forever never..
- HoLDNG My Dad's arm, waLkNG dOwN thE ASLe EntRuStNG Mi To tHe GuY WHo Love M.. My Dream WiLL nv Come True -
- Little Daughter Ah Ta-

Damn Sianz

That day went snow city to celebrate someone bdae.. wow piangz play play until i fell down.. now my head still pain... haiz.. den yest went steambiat at bugis.. well the food sux to the core! expensive.. wth.. i rather go marina bay.. after eating i stomache and run toilet for 4 times. my god... i juz finish cisco still got one more to go.. but i buai ta han liao... low blood see the screen too long.. now feel very sick and feel like vomiting le.. sianz everytime like that.. i hate this feeling it so miserable.. when can i be a strong n healthy girl.. HAIZ.. DOWN..

Melt..

Yesterday Was Fun.. Without...Ahem!

Yesterday me, joanne, anthony, alvin,kaijie and wenda we all went to marina bay and eat steamboat.. haha... quite fun though.. the music is nice too.. i fried beansprouts throughtout.. nice mah.. they said the amount i ate not even add up to 10 cents.. so bad.. i tried putting butter on the aluminium foil but kept failing in the end kaijie buai ta han he asked me sat down.. haha.. then joanne and me went toilet on the way saw jeremy while on the way back joanne and i stole some luncheone meat from other stall i was laughing all the way sia.. and she dropped some on the floor -_-lll wasted sia.. haha.. i laughed until i cried sia.. wow biangz she joker sia.. after that anthony went off due to he sick we ate for the second round.. then the rest of us went boat quay and drink with wenda friends.. the first pub we went sux.. the toilet were behind us and one guy went to wash his hand he on the tap and haha! the water splashed out like fountain.. damn funny.. after that we went to fernado.. wow biangz... so many pai kias.. saw allan, augustine they all... that big group.. we played cards drank.. then allan asked me go over and gave me a cup of martell with coke.. hehe quite nice leh.. hmmz.. but i cant hold my liqour well... before he went off allan asked me to be careful.. wow caring huh.. haha.. after that alvin sang the song love me by collin raye.. and we also got high sang the songs we heard.. haha.. then my eyes got damn dry cuz of all the smoke until tears kept flowing non stop till kaijie need went out with me.. after that we went for roti prata we went home.. we had our last picture taken.. then that stupid wenda want play game with his friends dun wan to send me home.. in the end i must go home early in the morning myself.. sob sob.. =(